Meghan Markle opened up about her perspective and personal experience with the royal family in her interview with Oprah, revealing that at the worst times she was struggling with her mental health and 'didn’t want to be alive anymore.'
If you or someone you love is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please contact the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 0300 304 7000, or call the Samaritans 24/7 helpline, on 116 123.
Speaking to Oprah, she alleged that she struggled to receive treatment when she began to have 'real and frightening' thoughts and asked if she could go somewhere to get mental health help. She told Oprah she was not allowed.
'I went to one of the most senior people to get help. And I share this because, there are so many people who are afraid to voice that they need help, and I know how hard it is to not just voice it but to be told no,' Meghan claimed. Meghan also said she went to the palace's human resources and told them directly 'I need help.'
'[Human resources] said: "My heart goes out to you because I see how bad it is, but there's nothing we can do to protect you because you're not a paid employee of the institution." This wasn't a choice, this was emails and begging for help saying very specifically: "I am concerned for my mental welfare,"' Meghan said. 'Nothing was ever done. So we had to find a solution.'
Ultimately, she says she confided in Prince Harry and then reached out to one of Princess Diana's best friends for help and encouragement, 'Because who else could understand what it's actually like on the inside?'
'[Going to a hospital] is what I was asking to do,' she said. 'You can't just do that, I couldn't call an Uber to the palace, you couldn't just go. You have to understand...that was the last time I saw my passport, my drivers license, my keys. All that gets turned over.'
Thankfully, Meghan says she sees now that life is worth living and she is in a much better place.
Her comments come amid palace aides choosing this week to accuse Meghan Markle of bullying and Buckingham Palace launching an HR investigation. In response, Meghan's team called the bullying claims an 'attack on her character' and also said what many royal fans are thinking re: the timing of this all:
'It’s no coincidence that distorted several-year-old accusations aimed at undermining The Duchess are being briefed to the British media shortly before she and The Duke are due to speak openly and honestly about their experience of recent years.'
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